Tuesday, 29 May 2012

Fantasy

Back to daydreaming now. And blogging. Just me and my thoughts on this blog. And I'm gonna blog a hell lot more on this one. This blog means a lot to me. I have been daydreaming a lot, even though I had a lot of work to do it didn't stop me. Nothing usually does. I daydream to sleep at night when I cant sleep. That's getting rare now, I watch TV now, so I don't really daydream that much before bed. The car journeys help quite a lot. Especially the music, its getting more inspirational, and a new CD for my car, just made me happier. Tomorrow I'm getting my laptop back so its going to start getting better now. Gonna clean the laptop to make it faster then I'll be good. I'm excited to back to my old ways tomorrow now. I can't wait. 

Sunday, 29 January 2012

Football Matches

Today has consisted a lot of football. I was looking forward to the Sunderland match and then after was dying to go on fifa. There was no time for daydreaming. I was focusing on the match to much. But I know tonight I will be back in my fantasy world doing what I do best. But, its going to be early as I've got to get up at 7 for uni. That's the one thing I hate. I usually rush things and end up doing something stupid which I will probably regret. So since the Internet is working I will plan ahead so I won't have to make any mistakes. Whereas tomorrow I'll probably get bored in my lecture and I will end up daydreaming. That's just typical me really. 9-6 tomorrow... somehow I am not really looking forward to it. But I will look forward to tomorrow night, again, in my fantasy world. Because tomorrow is just another day.

Saturday, 28 January 2012

Working 9 til Half 6

Instead of working til 9 til 5 like a normal day, I worked til half 6, and on a Saturday. Shows how much dedication I had today. There was no time for daydreaming, I had to be fully focused on getting stock out and serving customers. So at the end of the day I can't wait to get home and be in my fantasy world. So after tea later, going back to my room, door closed, music loud and on my sofabed. Just like old times. 

I will probably be listening to the lostprophets tonight. The Song, For he's a jolly good felon, is just my song for when I am in my fantasy world. 

We take to get along,
we’re holding on, we’re holding on,
and all these estates we’re on,
everyone‘s singing!


My favourite part of the song. I sing along to it everytime. And then it goes on to my next part. 

all the police are wrong,
so we’re still singing.
7 days a week, patrolling all these streets.
I try to stop, but I can’t help it.
I know you call me weak, my future is oblique.
I take to get along, cause I still need it. 
 

Oh the irony for my occasion. The police are wrong, while in my world thinking I can be above the law if I want to be. Then I snap into reality later and laugh about it. And then 7 days a week partrolling the streets. That part quite true. Now I am back to my old ways again, wake up, uni - or work - home, family time, eat, fantasy life, then sleep. The cycle goes on. 

Friday, 27 January 2012

Back in Black

After reading posts from 2 years ago I have decided to go back to my old blog on my maladaptive daydreaming life. It's not that bad after getting used to it, its the way I live and couldn't imagine life without it. It's how I get by and feel a better person. So I feel this is the most appropiate song for this time. 

Back in black
I hit the sack
I've been too long I'm glad to be back
Yes, I'm let loose
From the noose
That's kept me hanging about
I've been looking at the sky
'Cause it's gettin' me high
Forget the hearse 'cause I never die
I got nine lives
Cat's eyes

Abusin' every one of them and running wild



The first verse from AC/DC's back in black, and I am listening to it right now, and is making me feel really good. On a night I would usually type into microsoft word what is happening in another world in my head, but however, I am taking a break from it tonight. I was out last night socialising, drinking, and being in the real world. Rock night out, my favourite night out ever. My favourite songs and I was singing along to them with my friends, made me feel great. So instead I will wash my hair, and then go on the PS2 and play fifa, and early to bed and up at 7 for work. 

Tomorrow night, my maladaptive daydreaming will commence. It's a good job I've got work and uni to stop me from daydreaming for a while and to be in the real world. I see my MD as a side hobby, something to do at night to cheer me up and feel a better person. It's somewhere where I'm not ignored and I'm the boss. I'm not going to change from this for a while now. Things are great the way they are.

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

What The Hell?

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?


Love the song and love the lyrics. Again the lyrics are meaning something to me here. I know that everything is ok now. That's the main thing. It's all good. There isn't much to say now. Tiredness is kicking in. And it is late at night. I just love this song so much. Listening to it non stop now :)

Monday, 17 January 2011

Can't Catch Tomorrow

A little piece of me grows old
I keep on walking down this road
I've seen a million people change
but I will stay the same
and I know you wanna steal and borrow
and I know you will never catch, you're never gonna catch tomorrow


Yet again I have found some lyrics which mean something. I keep walking down the same roads.... I've seen a million change..... but I'm always gonna stay the same. It's how life goes. It might be like this forever. Doesn't bother me. Thing's are just great now. Plans are to come back late from uni. I liked it today. Gonna take a trip to the hospital later, and literally. Well...... not of course... it's all in my head. It's the way I live. It's probably gonna happen tomorrow as well. Cos I can make it happen. And no one can stop that. It's the way things go round here. Nothing and no one is gonna change. I'm not gonna let it. It's nice like this. Very nice. :)

Sunday, 16 January 2011

Streets Of Nowhere

These city lies,
The bullshit smiles,
The inside jokes and the changing style.

But when I'm here,
I leave behind,
What I don't need
'Cause everytime I walk these streets I know they're mine.


The lyrics are all true. This song is on non stop now. It's so catchy and so true. I leave everything back in reality and the streets I walk on are in my head. The streets of nowhere. I feel that it makes a lot of sense. Everything is changing, well not everything, but some things are. I can battle it. I can deal with it. It's all good. Just think positive. Positive is good.

It's just another day,
Living here this way,
Nothing ever troubles me,
And I say, "Lalalaa lalalaala, Lalalaa lalalaala la,
Everything's ok."


My favourite bit of the song. It's just another day... living with the daydream... nothing ever troubles me. And I sing lalalaa lalalalaaaaaaaa. Everything's ok. Cos everything is GREAT! No matter what happens I always pick myself up. I see this as an advantage of being me really. Just turn around. I can do it. All I know is that everything is ok :)