What The Hell?

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

Love the song and love the lyrics. Again the lyrics are meaning something to me here. I know that everything is ok now. That's the main thing. It's all good. There isn't much to say now. Tiredness is kicking in. And it is late at night. I just love this song so much. Listening to it non stop now :)

Can't Catch Tomorrow

A little piece of me grows old
I keep on walking down this road
I've seen a million people change
but I will stay the same
and I know you wanna steal and borrow
and I know you will never catch, you're never gonna catch tomorrow

Yet again I have found some lyrics which mean something. I keep walking down the same roads.... I've seen a million change..... but I'm always gonna stay the same. It's how life goes. It might be like this forever. Doesn't bother me. Thing's are just great now. Plans are to come back late from uni. I liked it today. Gonna take a trip to the hospital later, and literally. Well...... not of course... it's all in my head. It's the way I live. It's probably gonna happen tomorrow as well. Cos I can make it happen. And no one can stop that. It's the way things go round here. Nothing and no one is gonna change. I'm not gonna let it. It's nice like this. Very nice. :)

Streets Of Nowhere

These city lies,
The bullshit smiles,
The inside jokes and the changing style.

But when I'm here,
I leave behind,
What I don't need
'Cause everytime I walk these streets I know they're mine.

The lyrics are all true. This song is on non stop now. It's so catchy and so true. I leave everything back in reality and the streets I walk on are in my head. The streets of nowhere. I feel that it makes a lot of sense. Everything is changing, well not everything, but some things are. I can battle it. I can deal with it. It's all good. Just think positive. Positive is good.

It's just another day,
Living here this way,
Nothing ever troubles me,
And I say, "Lalalaa lalalaala, Lalalaa lalalaala la,
Everything's ok."

My favourite bit of the song. It's just another day... living with the daydream... nothing ever troubles me. And I sing lalalaa lalalalaaaaaaaa. Everything's ok. Cos everything is GREAT! No matter what happens I always pick myself up. I see this as an advantage of being me really. Just turn around. I can do it. All I know is that everything is ok :)  

We're Not Gonna Take It

Oh we're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
Oh we're not gonna take it anymore

We've got the right to choose it
There ain't no way we'll lost it
This is our life, this is our song


This song speaks out for us all. I'm really getting into this song now. We have the right to make our own opinions.... Today... was ok. A lot less daydreaming. Didn't really bother me. I came up with different scenarios to fit the scenery. And it worked very well. That's all that mattered. My good deed paid off, and I feel good now. And I'm gonna do another good deed tomorrow. Good deeds for other people make you feel a better person. I now have a plan to read more. It probably won't work but I'll give it a go. And this is all I have to say now. 


We're free!! Yeah! 

Go Your Own Way

You can go your own way
Go your own way
You can call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way


This was the last song I played on guitar hero. Guitar hero of which I played most of the day. I finally had a day of rest. A day of daydreaming. It was great. I loved it. It's late and now I have nothing much to say. Apart from life is great right now. That's it. I can go my own way. You can go your own way. We can all go our own way's. And that's it for now. 

Maladaptive Daydreaming

Maladaptive daydreaming has its ups and downs. It can give you creativity, help you see issues from different angles and can help us act quick. It helped me with all of them things. But then the cons, which are not very nice. Stress, lack of concentration, clumsy, hard to keep a relationship with someone and difficulty to complete tasks. I again do all of these. I can't help myself. It really does make me think about life. Are we here for a reason? Am I here for a reason? There are many questions in life which will be unanswered. We cant help but daydream excessively. I am addicted to it. Fact. I create all different scenarios which lands me in all different situations. And I make myself live it inside of my head. Because it makes me feel better. 


The real question is, why do we daydream? And the answer is, to escape reality. We all do it. Every single one of us. But to daydream excessively is not normal. But then, what is normal? I don't know what normal is. It's personal opinion. Everything these days is personal opinion. Nothing is ever a fact any more, life is all opinion based. Or is it? Here's me typing all this and not knowing if anyone is reading it. I do it to express my feelings. Because it makes me feel better. I guess we all do it these days. And yet, I am daydreaming my life away with no one to help me. 


I guess in order to try and stop daydreaming is to find, and kill the source of it. I would kill it, but I can't do that. The source to my daydreaming is a person. The source to my daydreaming is a relative of mine. I think it's quite sad really. The amount of things I have done for them, and they have done nothing to repay me. It's gone on for years now. I do wish they would move out. I even daydream what life would be like without them. It would be great. I do want to move out next year. But... I would be moving away from all my memories and daydreaming. I don't know if I could do it. It would be to hard. Life can be hard or easy. It can be however we can take it. Well, now I guess it's back to daydreaming now, it's the thing I can do which makes me happy. 

All My Life

All my life I've been searching for somethin'
Somethin' never comes, never leads to nuthin'
Nothin' satisfies, but I'm gettin' close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around, and it's takin'away
Leaves me with the feelin' that I fear the most 
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost


This song just helps me daydream. I feel like the lyrics mean something, something precious to life. Just daydreaming my life away. And yet I don't really seem to care. Should I? I don't think I'll ever know.I don't know if I wanna know either. All I know is that today was a good day. Most of essay done now. Things are going great. Late at night now. Bed soon. And all night long I'm gonna be dreaming of the next day. I seem to do that sometimes. Don't know why. It's just weird. Life's weird anyway. One day I'm gonna find out the meaning of life, and I know it. I feel like this is enough now. I'll recap tomorrow. 


But I'm gettin' close closer to the prize at the end of the rope