Hell Yeah!

Let's Go! We can't live forever
One note! The louder the better
So Let's Go! We're in this together
Can you hear me?
Hell Yeah! Let's Go!


On a roll!! This is what I was like today. All up and ready for business. It's late at night and I still am right now. Life has just got better :) Was a fun filled day today battling whatever came to me. Back to the way things used to be now. It's better now. A whole load better. I'm happier more than ever now. T'was an unusual day though. Well it wasn't that unusual, I'd say usual. Just arrested and then to hospital. That's all normal. There's nothing unusual about that situation. Apart from the fact I have a bandage on my arm and it hurts. But oh well, I've been in worse pain than this before. I'll live through it and I know I'm gonna live through it. I'll sleep it off, cos I sleep everything off. I now like how things are, and am gonna keep it this way. It makes me happy and its how life goes on.


The reality of this situation is that I was not arrested and did not end up in hospital. It's all in my head. For some strange unknown reason I like to daydream about it. But it makes me happy and that's that. Being this way makes me happier and feel like things are heading on the way back to normal. This is a good thing. A very good thing. I've said it before but I'll say it again, things are now heading up. This is great. Life is great :)  

Back In Black

Things are heading on the hill up. And there's no going down. The daydreaming is getting better. I actually did something today. And it felt great! There was no way I was gonna stop. I was on a roll. I'm not gonna stop at all now. I'm getting into my mojo now, and can't see a way of getting out, it's brilliant! Can't go leaving it behind. Sometimes, I'd see it as a problem. Not now. I'm looking on the up. Music is starting to come back now, and playing a big role. It makes me feel happy and more a part of the world now. Nothing down, all on the up. There'll be more tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after. This is how things were, and it's gonna stay this way. I'm not gonna let anything get in the way now. 


I'm on the mend. I'm all better now. No illnesses now. It's all gone. Music all the way. And the fact I was on guitar hero most of the day. That also helped. Get's me back in the mood. I found that people were the problem. We need to work around this problem. I did that well I reckon. Like I said, on the mend and on the up. Today was good. And yet again, I'm tired from doing basically nothing. I know that my mind was active though. Very active. It nearly always is. It's all good. :) 

Christmas :)

New laptop and new times ahead :) Looking forward to it! Today wasn't all that bad. Not much daydreaming involved. Took the time out and spent it with family. It was very sociable and enjoyable. Everyone was satisfied with their presents and no one was upset. It was a nice Christmas. It's late and now have nothing much to say. Getting onto the positive side on things now. Tomorrow will be a good day. Been planning ahead. It's what I like. It's all good now. All there is now to say is Merry Christmas :) And a happy new year! 

Bottom Of The Well

I gotta get out I gotta break free
Ain't gonna live in misery
My minds made up I'm leaving today
Come hell or high water I'm will break these chains
Gonna scratch my way, claw my way,
Dig my way, back to the top
Cause I never say die, I never give in
I never stop giving it all that I got
I'm breaking out of hell

Great song and relevant for these times. I'm fighting it, and I'm gonna end up at the top. Not the bottom. Gotta think positive from now on. Positive. New years resolution. Not to stop daydreaming. Was originally planning for it to be the other way round. But I can't live without daydreaming. It's the only thing that makes me happy. Fact. Songs like these make me feel at my best. I'm in a battle now. And I'm gonna win. In another one of them 'weird' moods again. Or maybe it's cos I'm tired. I can never really tell. 


Gotta look more into the future now. And what I can get out of life. I'm sure there'll be something out there. And hey, it's Christmas tomorrow! It'll be good. It'll be good.... Another new start. I'll make something good out of it. More positive thoughts. Gonna stay this way. This music is making me happy. It's gonna be good :) 

Roller Coaster Of Emotions.

Today was very much like a roller coaster of emotions. Constantly up and down. This morning I was on top of the world, and then everything under me was knocked down and I became depressed. Making me think about it a little makes me feel a little down, but not a lot. Daydreaming got the better of me today. That's where I fell, and stayed down. I let myself stay like that and was depressed as hell. I need to knock myself out of it. I then found out that music DID change my emotions. It was brilliant. Now I'm listening to it more, I'm bringing myself back up now. I'm back on the fence now, on one half I'm battling with reality, and the other half the fantasy world. It's how I live, and will continue on this way. 


I'm back on top now. Think positive. That's the way to go. I guess I'll sleep it off now. Not feeling so good about getting up early though. I hate early dentist appointments. I despise them... Gotta look forward to the big lie in on Christmas Eve though. That's another positive thing. Christmas. Best time of the year for some. Gotta stay on the positive now :) 

Parallel Worlds

I'm stuck in parallel worlds, something supernatural,
It wont let me go,
Its paranormal, and no one else believes me,
I feel so alone again.


I find this song very addictive. And very relevant to today. There are so many worlds I have going on through my head which feel 'supernatural'. I do feel lonely but on the other hand I don't seem to care. I've been in these worlds for so long I now like to be lonely. The word 'introvert' comes into the equation. Today I became so absorbed in my fantasy world I went onto the Sims and started creating my people. I think it's slightly strange and weird, but on the other hand it's what I like doing. I'm a strange person anyway. 


I've never stopped once in the past week and thought about reality. I don't feel the need for it. I'm to absorbed into the fantasy world I don't care for reality any more. I'm pretty sure there's a big group out there who feel the same way. And I want to find this group of people. I still haven't found my people yet. But one day, I will find them, and become one of them. 

Lonely Day

Today was a very lonely day. I was lying down for most of it. Still ill, although I think this cold is gonna go soon. Hospital all day. Kinda.... came out for tea and heading back soon. I'm telling myself to go back to bed now. I think I might soon like. I reckon I'll sleep well better tonight as well. I also feel like I'm making no sense. I'm probably not. Soon this week I'm gonna get out and do something. 


The reality of this situation is that I was not in hospital today. I was at home sitting in front of the TV all day. And I liked it. I felt no need to daydream. At all. 

Leave Me Alone

Still ill. Hating every minute of this. Didn't sleep well last night and probably won't tonight. Bad times. I'm in one of those 'leave me alone' moods now, I've only been ill 2 days. Today was kinda fun. Nice meal out and bowling afterwards. Good times. Then my cold kicked in and I had to drive back home. Bad times. Wasn't in the mood then. Need to get in the mood of daydreaming. I cant zone out. It won't help at all. And to top it all off I'm gonna head out. 


The reality of that situation is that it's all true. Apart from the last part. I'm not really going out. I'm gonna fantasize it, and type it up. Like I usually do. I love it. It makes me feel good. Not much on now. Off and out. 

This Is How I Disappear

It's one of them times where I feel like disappearing. Forever. I've been ill all day. Not good. I spent this time watching Harry Potter and trapped in the magical world. I do like Harry Potter. I'd like to be a witch. I reckon it would be pretty cool. 


It's time to get drunk this weekend. Fun times. And the start of the holidays' tomorrow! Even more fun times. Not exactly fussed over Christmas. Never am. Same old same old. I'm growing out of it now. It feels like one of them dark days where you want the earth to swallow you up. I'm being more sucked into the fantasy world now. It's starting to grow on me. But for now, over and out. 

I Fought The Law And The Law Won

I had one of those dreams again last night where I was arrested again. It was quite a weird location this time, abandoned house, in the middle of nowhere, and a lot of rocks about. The most weird part of it all was that they made me eat something, so I got a packet of hula hoops from a vending machine. Weird. They beat me and I ended up going somewhere with them. I woke up. 


Today, just another normal long day at uni. No real daydreaming involved. Just back to the normal place and get on with essay time. Fun fun fun. Not. Can't WAIT to get it done tomorrow. Then par-tay Friday and Saturday! The holidays. Now that will be exciting. Very exciting. It's the serious business soon. 


The reality of this situation is..... that this IS the reality of this situation. All of the above did actually, and will, happen. And I'm excited. Well in truly excited. :) 

I Can Dream

I had that weird dream again. I was back at my Primary school. And I was in the playground. There was the big crowd again. And I was running away again. Then a kick off the ground and I was in the air. I could dream I was someone else. It was amazing. Then people started throwing things at me, and missed. It was quite funny actually. Then I sat on the roof, then a little kid started to climb on the roof. I had to stop him, so I did, and put him on the ground, and then people praised me for it. I felt kinda special. 


Weird dream that was. Now I'm back in the world and not dreaming. Although when I do daydream I can fly. Weird. Everything is weird these days. Just a normal weekend and gonna do some work. And play the guitar, can't forget to do that. 


The reality of this situation is that... it is real. Next week is just gonna be another normal week at Uni. Then... the holidays! I can't wait. Exciting stuff. :) 

Everything Is Average Nowadays

'Everything is average nowadays, everyone would do it if they can, and everything is going down the pan' it's true. Everything is average, everything is back to normal. Or is it? No doubt I'll probably come up with another crazy scheme. 


My plan today, stay in and do this essay. Sounds like a good plan actually. A very good plan. It's such a good plan I'll try and not go out today. Well..... that's a lie. It's Saturday. I always go out on a Saturday. Least it won't be in the hospital.... touch wood. I just hope my daydreaming won't get the better of me today. Or I WILL do something stupid today. 


The reality of this is.... is that it is true this time. Just swapped the other way round. Yeah I think I might come up with a crazy scheme. Cos I like doing it, I don't know if I'm any good at it like. Oh well, thing's are looking up now :) 

Live Or Let Die

I was in a decision tonight. Number 1, get myself killed somehow tonight and live in the Pirate world for two days. Then on Sunday night, I would come back from the dead and everything would go back to normal. Or Number 2, let myself live, and everything was ok. I chose number 2. Wise choice I think . I couldn't have done the first one. I might next week when it's the holidays, it makes more sense. 


No doubt I'll come up with another crazy idea tomorrow. I don't wanna be in hospital again. I already had a week of that the other week. It was a bit crazy. I'll lay off that for a while. I know this weekend I've got to get cracking on with this essay. That's the main priority. Then after that.... party!  


The reality of that situation is that it never happened. It only did in my head. I let my imagination run wild. And I love it. Fun times. :) 

The Fantasy

The fantasy world is a strange and wonderful place. I love it. Living by myself right now and in my flat. I love it. No one here to tell me what to do and where to go. I make my own rules. I love it. Rules aren't made to be broken, that's why I made them. I'll go out and do something wrong, and I'll get away with it. Good times. 


The pirate world....... I've just come from there this morning. Blah..... I loved it there. Oh well.... I can go back whenever I want. Then the other world... hmm... I can't keep up. Good times. I ended up in hospital, twice, today.... bad times. Everything's good now though. Not caring for reality. Does anyone care for reality? 


The reality is everything of the above I've said didn't happen. Bad times. The word, fantasize, comes to mind. No, the real word is daydreaming. Yeah that's more like it. I daydream... and I love it. Yeah that makes more sense. :)